Chronic Anxiety
As a person who has struggled with chronic anxiety my entire life i have a huge appreciation for how she gave us the credit we deserve for surviving the pain of everyday.
Blue butterfly(poem)
On the surface are bumps
Mounds
Cuts
Creases
Some patches darker than others
Overall a golden brown
My fingers brush across my skin,
And there it is.
The indentation of my secret
The only thing that keeps it hidden is a piece of fabric
The indentation
My butterfly
She lies there
Patiently
Quietly
Wings smothered by chains
Waiting -waiting -waiting
To be set free.
Sister dearest(poem)
Sometimes i wonder
If she ever loved me
Was her hatred ever dimmed enough to feel something other than envy
I love her
And once even liked her.
Once.
Does she remember?
What we are.
The same seed
Both watered by fallen tears
Separate womb
Blossomed onto eachothers face
Why does it matter?
Sister dearest,
Why are you so sad?
I can see the broken longing child behind the forest in your eyes.
Why do you despise me so?
I can see the flurry of curses between those phony curved lips .
Sister dearest, tell me why i never saw it before,
Why was i so blind?
Why wont you answer me ?
Why dont you care?
Why did things have to be this way ?
Would it have been any different were we of the same womb?
Sister dearest
I bleed
Sister dearest
I yearn
Sister dearest
It hurts
Sister dearest
isnt there
Sister dearest
Doesnt care
Sister dearest
Why did you lie to a shattered spirit,
Sister dearest
Why did you kick me and laugh when i was already broken?!
Sister dearest
Why bother pretending.
Why waist your breath!
Why fake the smiles!
Why pretend to love me?!
Why fake sympathy
Why hide the truth if you were burning to hurt me?
It wouldve been best to pierce this cotton heart with the spear of truth.
Youd have my distance
Youd have my pain
Youd have it all.
Why?!
Sister dearest
I miss you
Sister dearest
I car
Sister dearest
I wish we could have been more
Sister dearest
I wish you happiness
Sister dearest
I lovw you
But
Sister,
i must let you go.
To die again (poem)
He doesn’t love me
He doesnt care
This feeling is all too familiar
Why again
It hurts
But not to the core
Not the the soul like before
Not to the atom like before
It hurts
But its bearable
Manageable
How to say goodbye
To salvation
How to let go
Of my oxygen tank
How will i breath
Without air
Will i be left gasping again
Again
Again
All too familiar is the ache
Again
Again
All too familiar are the bruises
Again
The old flesh rips
Again
Again
Bleeds
Again
Again
I sign the pointless contract
Again
Again
In blood
Again
To die again
Blood of my sisters
(old poem repost, it felt fit for the mood i was in)
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The world has made a mockery of us
Turned us into an impossibility
A joke
Cackles and chuckles at the mere thought
A child’s tale
Myth
The children speak true
Mock myth when its present before your eyes
Feed yourself ignorance
Denial burns in their eyes
Fear
What brought us here is seen as myth
Do I look like myth?
Are these eyes stirrings of fairy dust ?
I am real as you
Flesh of man
Soul of earth
Daughter of magic
Daughter of power
Daughter of wisdom
The earth is my mother
Why do you snicker?
Preposterous you say ?!
You worship one you cannot see!
I see my goddess
In everything
We are not a joke
Be wise
Tread carefully
Respect as I respect you
You mock me again
Im brought back
Back to a time of magic running red
Like rivers of wine
Spilled
Spit
Pointless attempt at purification
Drums of war in the hearts of the ignorant
Following the word of one man
One mans word
Red velvet flies
Its everywhere
Screams
Myth being tortured
Consumed by pain
Fire
Rope
Knife
Rock
Touched of our sin
Touched of our freedom
Fear
Insensible
Wine falls from my sisters
Screams from my sisters
Agony from my sisters
Myth you say ?!
You come to me and demand I follow your way ?!
The light?!
The truth?!
Do not speak to me of light you hypocrite!
Do not speak to me of truth you ignorant fool!
Wine falls of my sisters
Screams of my sisters
Agony of my sisters
And you call it myth?
Do not walk upon us with your face of righteousness
Waiving your tainted flag , and call me sinner
My only sin is being free
But I guess it is in freedom that most often find sin
Crazy? Maybe
Liar? Never
I know what I am
And if you could muster some sort of vision youd see
You know too
Treat us as what we are
Magical
Beautiful
Equal
One mans word
Your peoples blood spilled in the attempt to follow it
See us
See us
We are not of Satan
He is your creation not ours
We are ” inpure” as you
Our sisters and brothers of man
Our kind
One kind
( I was angry but I wanted to share, I mean no disrespect to any one however if I have offended you I apologize please let me know and I will remove it )
Do I look like myth? ( Angry Poem )
The world has made a mockery of us
Turned us into an impossibility
A joke
Cackles and chuckles at the mere thought
A child’s tale
Myth
The children speak true
Mock myth when its present before your eyes
Feed yourself ignorance
Denial burns in their eyes
Fear
What brought us here is seen as myth
Do I look like myth?
Are these eyes stirrings of fairy dust ?
I am real as you
Flesh of man
Soul of earth
Daughter of magic
Daughter of power
Daughter of wisdom
The earth is my mother
Why do you snicker?
Preposterous you say ?!
You worship one you cannot see!
I see my goddess
In everything
We are not a joke
Be wise
Tread carefully
Respect as I respect you
You mock me again
Im brought back
Back to a time of magic running red
Like rivers of wine
Spilled
Spit
Pointless attempt at purification
Drums of war in the hearts of the ignorant
Following the word of one man
One mans word
Red velvet flies
Its everywhere
Screams
Myth being tortured
Consumed by pain
Fire
Rope
Knife
Rock
Touched of our sin
Touched of our freedom
Fear
Insensible
Wine falls from my sisters
Screams from my sisters
Agony from my sisters
Myth you say ?!
You come to me and demand I follow your way ?!
The light?!
The truth?!
Do not speak to me of light you hypocrite!
Do not speak to me of truth you ignorant fool!
Wine falls of my sisters
Screams of my sisters
Agony of my sisters
And you call it myth?
Do not walk upon us with your face of righteousness
Waiving your tainted flag , and call me sinner
My only sin is being free
But I guess it is in freedom that most often find sin
Crazy? Maybe
Liar? Never
I know what I am
And if you could muster some sort of vision youd see
You know too
Treat us as what we are
Magical
Beautiful
Equal
One mans word
Your peoples blood spilled in the attempt to follow it
See us
See us
We are not of Satan
He is your creation not ours
We are ” inpure” as you
Our sisters and brothers of man
Our kind
One kind
( I was angry but I wanted to sare, I mean no disrespect to any one however if I have offended you I apologize please let me know and I will remove it )
In Our Stars 